DEFEAT TO VICTORY

“WE ARE OFFICIAL.”


I smiled, I was in shock, I felt relieved, and then it hit me.


Worthy Movement is a 501(c)3 Non Profit.


Then the tears came and the realization started to sink in.


What started with two friends who reconnected at a women’s event in 2016, soon turned to many conversations over coffee in 2017 about our hopes, dreams and a common desire to see the Bride of Christ know their true worth and identity in Jesus.


At the time these conversations were happening, I (Sarah) was struggling with depression. I was also involved in ministry in the church, and there were a lot of things in my life that seemed outside of my control.


There would be times Kissy and I would meet for coffee and we’d be brainstorming these ideas and see how God would bring these ideas together.


And there were times when we would have these conversations and I would come so depressed. I didn’t even hide it. And in my shame and defeat, Kissy was there, ready to listen.


It was those times that I was shown grace and mercy like Christ.


It was in the darkness that the Light would come.


I worked in the church, I was involved in ministry, I “had it all together”, but I was hiding the reality that I was falling apart.


I am reminded of this section in Hebrews 10 of the importance of community and confessing our hardships and sins to each other:


“Let us hold fast the confession of our hope without wavering, for he who promised is faithful. And let us consider how to stir up one another to love and good works, not neglecting to meet together, as is the habit of some, but encouraging one another, and all the more as you see the Day drawing near.” Hebrews‬ ‭10:23-25‬


I do not minimize the reality of depression, but for me it was spiritual. I put all my hope and identity in my circumstances, in my job, in my relationship status, and things were not going my way. I believed the lie that no one understood. Honestly, only Jesus could really understand, but I was lost in my own mindsets.


Kissy would listen, but she spoke truth in love. God used His daughter to remind me of how loved I am by Him.


He started to unravel who He had created me to be all along.


I am a child of God.

I am now seen worthy in His presence.

He’s not surprised or disappointed at my failures.