SEX ADDICTION



I was a sex addict.


I was a sex addict for 17 years of my 36 years on this beautiful earth


How could I be a sex addict? I loved Jesus more than anything in the world. I grew up in the church, I was at youth group every Wednesday, Friday, and Sunday.


I have had more “partners” than I care to admit.


I was addicted to pornography.


I would have sex multiple times a day (sometimes with different men) then go home, watch porn, and practice self-love.


My mind was wild.


I could be in the act with a man and not even be present in the moment.


I would immediately go to another world.


A world in which I have seen before in a porno that I had watched or some made up fantasy.


I would not even see the physical man in front of me sometimes; I would see the man I watched on the TV or any other person I wanted to imagine being with.


I just craved sex.


I could have cared less about the men I slept with; I just loved sex and that is all it was to me, just sex, nothing more, nothing less.


What was wrong with me?


Doctors diagnosed me with "all of the things" including: chronic anxiety, depression, PTSD and Bipolar II in 2016. And at 31 years old, AFTER I tried to commit suicide, I was heavily medicated for my own safety and for the safety of my two young children.


At this time in my life, I had the most amazing boyfriend (who is now my husband) and I truly believe he was the beginning of a massive shift that was taking place. A shift I knew nothing about at the time, but looking back now, I see it an