"And what more shall I say? For the time would fail me to tell of Gideon..." Hebrews 11:32
"So Gideon said to God, IF You will save Israel by my hand as You have said --- look I shall put a fleece of wool on the threshing floor; IF there is dew on the fleece only, and it is dry on all the ground, then I shall know that You will save Israel by my hand, as You have said." And it was so, when he rose early the next morning and squeezed the fleece together, he wrung the dew out of the fleece, a bowlful of water.
Then Gideon said to God, 'Do not be angry with me, but let me speak just once more; let me test, I pray, just once more with the fleece; let it now be dry only on the fleece, but on all the ground let there be dew." And God did so that night. It was dry on the fleece only, but there was dew on all the ground." Judges 6:36-40
Opening line: "IF You will save Israel by my hand as You have said..."
Gideon's trust level with the Lord was running on empty, here.
After God had approached Gideon and told him he was a valiant warrior and assured Gideon that He would be with him to conquer the enemy, Gideon doubted the Lord. (Judges 6:12-18)
Even after the Lord saved Gideon's hide from angry, Baal-worshipping townspeople, Gideon doubted the Lord. (Judges 6:27-31)
I can just see Gideon pacing back and forth asking, "If You're sure...are You sure, Lord? Really positive? Like...You're "sure" sure? Or SURE sure?"
There are moments in our lives when God asks us to take big steps of faith.
This was Gideon's moment.
You wonder if Gideon knew in his heart that the Lord was "sure" but was in denial about it. That - when he saw the fleece first wet with dew, then dry - Gid knew in his heart of hearts that the Lord was "sure" and didn't want to admit it. Maybe he wanted to test the Lord, to provoke Him to anger and go find someone else for the mission.
Gideon did not want to yield to God's will because he didn't trust the Lord enough to know God had made a way that Gideon couldn't see at the time.
He was too focused on his self rather than the bigger picture here.
Not THY will, Lord, but MY will. I can't see how Your will works, God. So my will is better.
Sometimes we allow our doubts, fears, and anxieties to creep in and speak louder than God's voice. We doubt God's sincerity that He will provide, that He will lead us, that He will protect us. We doubt His Word when He says He will give us a "future and a hope." Jeremiah 29:11